Thoughts
On New Years Day
Yen
ref:
February 99 Heroinsight
New Year's day is meant to be fun, or a start to
a new beginning for everyone. But not for two particular
people. Their new year's resolution was the only
thing that was to fight this horrid disease, Heroin
Addiction.
Many times they have tried to quit; they've managed
to stay off the drug for at least a few days but
every attempt seemed to fail. Somehow the cravings
for this addictive drug was just too powerful to
say "No".
They describe the withdrawals as being too painful
to cope. At times there would be aches and pains
which wander throughout their bodies. Hot and cold
chills would just come and go, making them irritated
by the things and people who surround them.
There would be no energy inside their bodies, making
them restless, worn out and unable to move. It would
be like a sick person unable to do anything but
lie on the bed. Just being able to sit down and
have a session with only about two puffs would be
stuck in their minds constantly, knowing that just
that little bit would ease all of their pains and
feeling the Great High.
Every day would be like a cycle; waking up each
day, not having anything to look forward to, but
having to worry about not feeling like shit.
Regrets play a major part in their lives; they both
regret ever saying `yes' to the drug and getting
high. What they didn't realise was how their lives
would be later on - Junkies.
And now it's too late to turn back time 'cause I
know they both would do anything to turn back time.
Their only hope now is to quit 'cause no one is
to blame but themselves, and no one can help but
themselves. The next few days will be the longest
and hardest time of their lives and deep down inside
they know that's what they have to face in order
to live a normal life like all the people in this
world.
